We know that a year is 365 days. Except during leap year, 366. And we know that there’s 24 hours in a single day. And 60 minutes in an hour. We know that there’s 60 seconds in a minute. And that’s all I got because my brain is too overwhelmed with the thought of it any further. There’s infinity. That’s not an exact number, so we struggle with believing it. We don’t like what we don’t know.
A brain injury has been day after day of feeling oberwhelmed. Do I bring that on myself? Yes and no. There are times when I feel my brain is not my own. I have spent YEARS in therapy—physical, occupational, speech, hand, and psychological. I am overwhelmed with recovery. I became obsessed with getting better. Eventually, I had to accept the answer, “we don’t know. All you need is time.”
I can’t stand that answer. “Time.” It’s the worst to answer in the book. That’s the worst answer because there’s no defined end. We only know the beginning because we lived it. We experienced it. The vastness of “time” is overwhelming. And I know that being overwhelmed, makes me act a certain way I do not like.
When I get overwhelmed, I lash out, I get angry, I treat others not like I would like to. Then, I get upset with myself. No one wants that.
Then, I go back to the answer “time.” My brain gets lost in infinity. I start assuming, and that’s NEVER good because two brains thinking together can be great, and it can be stressful.
Just like infinity. Don’t even talk about two infinities. THAT is way too overwhelming. All jokes aside, sometimes you know best. It’s smart to take other sources into account, but in order to get better, we know the answer.
Time.
